Day Six

Visited the Doctors today, but she thought it was too soon to weigh me, she will only weigh me monthly.  I can understand the reasoning, however, I want to know how I’m doing!  Perhaps it is a blessing in disguise to have someone else control when I weigh, it means I don’t have to obsess over it.  I think that’s what I like about OA and AA – by handing things over to my Higher Power, I don’t have to think about things anymore! 

My appetite is definitely shrinking, and I think that is because I am appreciating what I eat more than before.  I used to eat so much rubbish during the day, that when it came to dinner time, I wasn’t that hungry and didn’t enjoy it all that much.  Now, I’m nicely hungry before each meal and it tastes so much better!  I don’t know why I don’t eat fruit and veg when I’m binging, as I actually prefer them to chocolate and sweets. 

The sugar cravings are almost gone, and my moods are stabilising.  I feel better in myself – I’m positive, have more energy, and there are no more chocolate stains on my clothes!

There is always a positive attached to the chore of visiting the doctor – it means I have to get out for a 20 minute walk.  I also popped into the shop, and it was a great feeling to be proud of my shopping at the check-out.  Usually I feel so ashamed that all I’m buying is rubbish.  I was sure that people would notice and think things like; “no wonder she is that size” and “she looks greedy, bet all that doesn’t last her long!”. 

 I had a thoroughly enjoyable dinner of pork medallions.  They have almost all of the fat trimmed off, meaning it is much easier to wash the tray afterwards!